Our beautiful baby daughter Anabelle was born sleeping June 2010.
Blessed with the screaming arrivals of our gorgeous rainbow sons,
Alexander October 2011, Zachary November 2013 and Lucas July 2016.

After Anabelle - Raising Rainbows
Heartbreak. Joy. Death. Life. But most of all Love.

Thursday, 6 June 2013

How This Day Could Have Been Different

Today, three years ago, was the pivotal moment for my daughter's fate.  

On the 6th June back in 2010 I was admitted to hospital threatening pre-term labour with Anabelle. With every tightening of my stomach her heart rate fluctuated and dipped. She wasn't happy. 

The Doctors were treating me to stop the tightening's while starting to prepare for a possible section at the same time if her heart rate didn't stabilise soon. 

It did stablise, we were relieved, then we thought she was too tiny to be born, but now I look back on this as our first warning sign. I wish we had got her out then, while she was still alive. 

A change of events at this point, on this day three years ago, just might have given us a different overall outcome. I know premature birth could have also risked her death, I know she might have been poorly. But a different decision, sparking a different chain of events and our daughter might have survived. 

Instead, ten days later she died. It could have been different. I miss her.

I hate June, but love that this is her month all the same.

Today I remember Cerian, on her 3rd birthday. 
Born sleeping on the 6th June 2010. 


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