After Anabelle

How many photos did you take today? 

One 

Only one... this is very unlike me! Infact, I'm a bit cross with myself because it means I've missed taking a photograph of Xander today! I try to take one every day. 

Today has been a busy day. This morning we went to the Sands Rainbow babies group for the first time. After lunch I had my nails done while Xander enjoyed some grandson and Bampi time, and this evening we've had a lovely visit from some lovely friends. 

The Rainbow babies group was fab, I don't know why I was so nervous before I went. Everyone was warm and welcoming and the best bit of all; a real shared understanding. No awkwardness. Instead of just bleakly mentioning Belle's name as my other child, we were able to sit there, as a group of Mums and expand on our stories. Able to comfortably introduce ourselves as Mums of more than one, Mums or two (or more!). Me, Mum of Belle and Xander. Able to expand on our feelings, and not brush over it. Able to talk about all our children openly and talk about what we're finding tricky at the moment. Remembering together.  I'm really looking forward to getting to know everyone better over the coming monthly meets. I'm already wondering why I haven't accessed local Sands support groups before now! Hindsight is a wonderful thing. I'm positive this group is going to be part of my 'being healthier in my grief' for 2013. 

It has been a good day, but a day with only one photograph.

This photograph. My friend Ryan enjoyed spending some of this evening playing Duplo with the baby and made him this aeroplane! What is it about boys and Lego!? Duplo, Megablocs and building are definitely Xander's favourite kind of game at the moment!