Our beautiful baby daughter Anabelle was born sleeping June 2010.
Blessed with the screaming arrivals of our gorgeous rainbow sons,
Alexander October 2011, Zachary November 2013 and Lucas July 2016.

After Anabelle - Raising Rainbows
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Friday, 17 December 2010

All I Want For Christmas Is New Year's Day...

…is a song by the Hurts. Have never heard of them before but this song was flagged up on the Sands forum this afternoon. This song just about sums it up, apart from one thing. It isn’t all I want for Christmas. Of course it isn’t remotely possible, but my daughter back for Christmas would be at the top of my list this year.  But I cannot have Anabelle, and so getting through to New Year’s Day sums it up.
It is not quite Christmas, but it’s white outside. Once upon a time I would’ve been excited about the prospect of a white Christmas. There are plenty of songs about snow at Christmas, but not once in my lifetime have I actually seen one. Looks like the probability of there being snow this Christmas is increasing, but even the snow won’t make this one magical or special. In fact, if a heavy snowfall prevented us from getting to Anabelle’s garden on Christmas Day I would feel like we had totally failed her. I need to go and mark the day with her there. Visiting her is part of our Christmas Day plan and therefore snow isn’t.
It should’ve all been so different.


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