Our beautiful baby daughter Anabelle was born sleeping June 2010.
Blessed with the screaming arrivals of our gorgeous rainbow sons,
Alexander October 2011, Zachary November 2013 and Lucas July 2016.

After Anabelle - Raising Rainbows
Heartbreak. Joy. Death. Life. But most of all Love.

Wednesday, 29 June 2011

I Am Two

Tonight; tired and emotional, just this:

I am two
Can that be?
I question which one's really me.
One is smiling? Coping well?
The other weeps in a living hell.

One is
too tired to deceive,
And wants to be alone to grieve.
The other 
Tries to battle on
Even though all meanings gone.

Some days, one
Is stronger than the other,
Or, the two,
Will merge, then I'm another.
Perhaps one day
I'll find the real 'I'
But until then
One will laugh
And the other will cry.

by Ann Holloway - taken from her book 'Matthew - Shadows Soft Around His Name'


Anonymous said...


Love Shabbs xxx

Sara said...

So true

My New Normal said...

Wow, amazing. Thank you so much for sharing. I feel like that most of the time. I call it my real face and my public face.

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