Our beautiful baby daughter Anabelle was born sleeping June 2010.
Blessed with the screaming arrivals of our gorgeous rainbow sons,
Alexander October 2011, Zachary November 2013 and Lucas July 2016.

After Anabelle - Raising Rainbows
Heartbreak. Joy. Death. Life. But most of all Love.

Tuesday, 3 May 2011

Maternity Leave

Today should have been my last day of maternity leave.  Tonight I should be fussing around getting a changing bag ready and stressing out about leaving Anabelle for the first time tomorrow. Tomorrow I should be ringing my mother at least three times during the day to check on how my baby is and counting down the minutes until I can go pick her up and bring her home. 

Instead I've been back at work for six months, our daughter has been dead for over ten months, there is no-one to ring tomorrow and Anabelle will never come home.


Waiting for Stanley and Lucy said...

Your posts are so poignant. If I ever get to have maternity leave and a subsequent return to work I will re-read these posts and make sure I don't take a single thing for granted. Lots of love Caz. xxxxxx

Sara said...

I've been following you for a couple of weeks now and just realised that Anabelle was born the day before my Griffin.

She's beautiful.


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