Our beautiful baby daughter Anabelle was born sleeping June 2010.
Blessed with the screaming arrivals of our gorgeous rainbow sons,
Alexander October 2011, Zachary November 2013 and Lucas July 2016.

After Anabelle - Raising Rainbows
Heartbreak. Joy. Death. Life. But most of all Love.

Friday, 2 October 2015

Intention

Today the project directs us to set a new intention, inspiration towards the next path of grief and healing. But the truth is I don't really know why I'm doing this, or what I want out of taking part in Capture Your Grief. Mostly I guess my intention was to just set aside half an hour or so out of my evening to reconnect with my blog. 

I write so much less than I used to and it has become a bit of a neglected space. 

Writing and posting has become centred all around those important dates or more difficult times of the year. The in-between times have become a celebration of Anabelle's rainbow brothers or a lull. This summer has been a lull. 

And I guess that is healing.  Managing myself without a stream of blogs like there was before.  


Sometimes I need to write and a post forms in my head as I try and organise my thoughts, fears, anxieties, grief. The post never gets written, I'm distracted by life and the moment passes. Sometimes I'm not even brave enough to 'write it out-loud' anymore. 

But healing for me has been writing. Releasing words to a page to let it go. At least for that moment. 

So I just thought I would see where each prompt on each day of this month took me. Giving my mind the space, the permission, the time, to write a post, explore some more parts of grief my life still holds. Will always hold. 

Intention. Capture Your Grief. Day 2. 


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